Not So Great Any More!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've never felt the way I  do right now I feel like some one just took a hold of my hart and ripped it out of my chest but that doesn't matter to any one but me. I feel like the world was just dropped on me and I'm struggling to hold it up it just gets heaver and heaver. Now my dreamers and my hart have been stepped on more then once they just keep on stepping on my and it makes me feel like there is nothing left to stay around for any more so. I have nothing at all no boyfriend , I have no life to live, and it seems like every time I try I don't do it the right way so I try again and still seem to never do it the right way and I just candor it any more I just don't know any more. Then at lunch I got in yelled at for some stuff but that brings you right back to I can't seem to do any thing the right way.I'm not able to keep myself together any more I'm falling to peace and I can't put me back together. I'm to the point wear I just don't want to come to school any more or go to Berkeley Springs again but if I do that I can't play basketball. I can't not play basketball I've got to it something I have to do.  I mean I love Andy but not the way I  use to though and now like I said I have nothing now but then I come a crost that I like Andrew R. to but I can't have him because he has a girlfriend and I like this other guy named Russell but hes 9 years older then me so.