life

Today is the must boringest day of my life I just need to go home and go to bed, I feel like poop and I just hate being a woman it just killing my so bad. Then to top things off people just like to piss me off so bad and I wish that my mom would just let me beat the poop out of all of them. Other then all that going on my day could be going better but we all no how use women get when we do feel good really moody and I wasn't very moody till Andy Day pissed me off again today for talking about me that kid is going to get it after basketball is over because I can't mess up me basketball thing just because he pissed me off not only that I have to play basketball because it is a part of me if I couldn't play basketball I would be lost and not only that I would be really fat because I would just end up staying home and being a couch potato and I don't want that I like doing sports.Then Erica and I are doing the science Fair together and we are doing it on DNA we are going to have so much fun doing this together. I might be going to Erica's house this weekend to work on it but its going to take for ever to do it because you have to mix all the stuff  together then you have to put it together and let it dry its going to take up to 3 hours to do it. Then after doing that we are going to try to stay up and watch movies all night then I will problem have to go home about 12:00 in the afternoon but then I will help her clean the house just because she let me do something so in return I help her do something. Oh and tomorrow we have a basketball game at home and we play Union that's going to be so much fun I like playing but I don't like playing to win I could care less if we win or loss I just like to get out there and try my best at doing what i need to be doing. School is really boring but I am doing good in all but my chemistry I just cant seen to get my grade up in that class but all that matters is that I'm trying so I can't get in trouble for that. Its like most teachers tell you try and mess up then try again it will not kill you it can help you. So I think that I'm doing great for the class being online. Well I think when I get home I'm going to take a nap until basketball which the is at 6:00 to 7:30 I don't no if I'm going to make it though basketball today I'm just not here.

wow school

I never knew that school could be so ugh.... It was just last month Andy was like oh well I still love you and I never wanted to loss you and now I'm a 2timing fat ass bitch well it's one thing to just joke about it but you call me fat I'm going to kick your butt. There is this thing that I can't tell my mom but I have to I just can't keep it from her but I want say anything about it on here. Well I have not done this in like 3 months wow that's a long time well I have a lot to talk about then. Yesterday we had our first basketball game it was really fun I haven't been able to do basketball it 7 months because of my foot. We didn't win but you can't always win now but I was just happy I got to play in the game. Then last week we played our boys that was really fun but it was really hear to do then I went to my daddy's I was really happy I got to see him it has been so long science i have seen my daddy well because I haven't seen him in a long time he thinks that we want nothing to do with him which that is not true yea we don't like his dad but we have to live with it. But what he don't understand is I have to keeping up with my school work and I do sports so I don't end up getting fat so then I can't be called a fat ass. Omg I had a really strong feeling to want to just ugh i really hate him I can hold it in anymore  ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh........

Not So Great Any More!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've never felt the way I  do right now I feel like some one just took a hold of my hart and ripped it out of my chest but that doesn't matter to any one but me. I feel like the world was just dropped on me and I'm struggling to hold it up it just gets heaver and heaver. Now my dreamers and my hart have been stepped on more then once they just keep on stepping on my and it makes me feel like there is nothing left to stay around for any more so. I have nothing at all no boyfriend , I have no life to live, and it seems like every time I try I don't do it the right way so I try again and still seem to never do it the right way and I just candor it any more I just don't know any more. Then at lunch I got in yelled at for some stuff but that brings you right back to I can't seem to do any thing the right way.I'm not able to keep myself together any more I'm falling to peace and I can't put me back together. I'm to the point wear I just don't want to come to school any more or go to Berkeley Springs again but if I do that I can't play basketball. I can't not play basketball I've got to it something I have to do.  I mean I love Andy but not the way I  use to though and now like I said I have nothing now but then I come a crost that I like Andrew R. to but I can't have him because he has a girlfriend and I like this other guy named Russell but hes 9 years older then me so.

wow this weekend was fun

Well on Friday night I went and I stayed with Katie and we died our hair then we talked to Jordan  on Myspace then we was eating candy by that time it was like 2:00 in the mroning then we talked about stuff like boys then by time we where done talking it was about 3:00 in the mroning.Then I got up at about 8:00 in the mroning and my family and I went to a volleyball game in Morgantown and when we got there it was snowing. Well there I am sitting there watching the volleyball game and texting Russell and there is this guy that was on the boys basketball team and I was going to ask him if I could have his cell number but then my mom came over and said something to him so I couldn't look at him the rest of the game. Well this Russell i'm talking about he is a fire fighter in Brekeley Springs he is 25 years old and, me and him are like best friends and, me and Russell we got each others backs he picks me up when i'm down. But then you got Andrew and hes 17 but hes 2 monthes older then me. Andrew he like there even no he lieves in Brekeley Springs he is a fire fighter to and its so cool that I have a 2 friends that I know that  if  i'm  hurt they will be there to help me and even no i'm not a fire fighter I would do any thing to help them. Today  is going great I have talk to so mine people that I haven't talk to in for ever and that is Chris and his brother now I don't talk about Chris to much but he is my brother and I love him.

Awesome

Today is the greatest day every and I have no one to tell me what to do YAY. Now i'm in Child Care and Parenting and it going good. Then i'm going to 20/21 and I  have a test in there I think I will do good on that test I usually do but. Then I am going home and then i'm going to call my friend from Berkeley Springs him name is Andrew  we've been friends sence the First grade he is really cute I would ask him to be together with me but he has a girlfriend but me and him are tight so. Then after I get off the phone i'm going to do some Math home work and so Chemistry I really don't like that chemistry is an online calss it just to not ease to do. After I doing  homework  i'm going to eat dinner and take care of the dogs and the cat. Then i'm going to ask my mom if i'm aloud to go to a friends house and stay the night with her my friends name is Katie. After that we are going to watch movies for most of the night I would say all night but we never make it all night.Then tomarrow i'm going to watch the girls volleyball game in morgantown thats going to be somuch fun  and i'm going to ask mom if  Katie can go with use then see if I can stay with her again and if that don't work we are going to see if she will let Katie stay with my.

OMG

My house is so old my sister and me just cleaned a lot of water off the floor and it was not fun at all but it was kinda fun i guess.Then we cleaned behind the dogs pens and it was ewww back in there. There was so much to do today and I sleeped most of the day. Yestroday was a bad day and now my body is just acking and my face is acking and i'm thinking about going to take a nape now.

Volleyballs over and now Basketballs starting

Well this sucks we lost our the game and now Volleyball is over and Basketball is on its way I don't no what to do. I don't know I really just think i'm going to say  good bye to basketball and do what I have been waiting to do for a verey long time. Even no I just  about did that Yestorday  but I didn't because I wanted to play in the game so i held it in and I held myself  back. So I thought I would be able to tell him that I just can't do it any more but theres something thats in my way I just don't know what it is thats in my way. It could be that I just love him so much or that there is just nothing left to do with myself any way. But I think that its just that I love him and I can't loss him.

boring

So Friday really sucked I had a bad day there just to much going on to be able to deal with all this stuff. Well then I got to Volleyball and I just couldn't get a brake there then i when a friend to stay the night with her. Then I went home about 11:00 on Saturday and then went and seen my pappy and hes not doing so great but  it was nice to be able to see him. After that we went home and got ready for Trick or treating  and that was so much fun all but i should have walked around by myself because I knew that something was going to happen. I just didn't want my friends to be put in the middle of it but i guess that didn't happen the way I wanted it to.Then i'm glad I didn't start that fight down at the store there was a lot of cops around that night so think god I didn't.Well then today wow it is just ugh ugh ugh I wish I could have just stayed at home it just can't get better at all thing have hit the fan here with me to day but i'm keeping controll of myself though so thats good i guess but I can't do it much longer so it not going to be cool.We have a game hope we winn.

Wow

Tomarrow is going to be so much fun i get to ware my cowgirl costum and its going to be awesome.....I when and got some cowboy boots....Halloween  its in two days i'm going to have so much fun going to hang out with friends and hanging with my Big Sis.....

WOW

Wow  Halloween is 3 day away and i'm going to have so much fun:im going to hang with friends and walk though town then going to hang with my Big Sis.....Fun Fun Fun......yay....

First post

Hey this is Tavia i just got to start bloging today how much fun this is yay....